This may not make sense to anyone but myself. But that doesn't really matter. I didn't write this for anyone but myself. The reality of death seams so very present in the world around me right now, and it saddens me just thinking about it. This really is all just a reminder to myself that God is in control, not me.
As I lay awake in bed one recent night I became restless and overwhelmed with everything that has been going on. I started to feel a deep sense of helplessness, thinking all I can do is pray.
But then I remember by praying I am no longer powerless nor hopeless. I am praying to the almighty God who hears me, and will answer me. The answer may not be what I expected or what I thought to be best, but none the less the answer will come. And the answer shall be in perfect harmony with the will of God. Who am I to tell God what is best. Has He not proven Himself to be in complete control that I so quickly assume my ways are better then His? What is my knowledge of these present things when compared to the perfect true knowledge of God. Is not my limited knowledge from God Himself? So where does me knowing better than God fit into the picture?
You see even before the beginning of time God predestined the life span of everyone who was to live. Ones life can not be cut short, only lived to the fullest faster then we humans wish it to be. Who am I to want one more day with someone whom God has called home? How selfish, though understandably so, is it that I should desire somebody to stay any longer in this cursed and wicked world. But I myself should also look forward to the hope I have of heaven. That one day soon I too shall have no more tears or pain. How great the day will be when I get to see the Almighty face to face. How wonderful to be forever in the presence of the one who has always and will always love me.
I also am in love with this random song by the news boys. Its a great reminder of who God is.
Your Love Never Fail Lyrics
Newsboys
Nothing can separate
Even if I run away
Your love never fails
I know I still make mistakes
You have new mercy for me everyday
Cause Your love never fails
Oh No No No
You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
There may be pain in the night
But joy comes in the morning
The wind is strong and the water's deep
But I'm not alone here in these open seas
Cause Your love never fails
The chasm is far too wide
I never thought I'd reach the other side
But Your love never fails
Oh No Oh No...
Yeah
You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
There may be pain in the night
But joy comes in the morning
And when the oceans rage
I don't have to be afraid
Because I know that You love me
Your love never fails
You make all things work together for my good
(GOD you never fail me)
You make all things work together for my good
(No you never fail me)
You stay the same through the age
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Your love never changes
There may be pain in the night
But joy comes in the morning
And when the oceans rage
I don't have to be afraid
Because I know that You love me
Your love never fails
Cause Your love never fails
